free as a bird

i've been back from louisiana/mississippi for about a week. it was weird. very weird. and backwards. we won't be going back to mississippi, but louisiana wants us back as soon as possible. the states are right next to each other but are sooo different. a little racist. it hurt to see it.

so now that i'm back, i've been getting things in order to move. the apartment was messy and has stayed messy and i'm done cleaning up after him. i don't care if the bugs carry me off into the night, i will not do it. there.

so i'm moving and i found a great apartment that is so cute and kind of makes me feel like i'm in a tree house. the bathtub has feet. that makes me happy. i canceled my contract with my personal trainer. bummer. but i have to pay bills and i MUST get health insurance. and a bed frame. and a new quilt. drapes. jesus, i will be broke.

valentine's day was perfect. seriously the best i've ever had. hands down. and i did NOT have a boyfriend. i saw celeste's husband's band play (3 beers), went and hung out with the single design kids (2 beers), went with an old friend to an open mic that is NOT so open (1 weird drink, don't remember), and then went back to my apartment with my old friend and liberated myself. thank you old friend.

i freed something. i don't know what. i let go of a part of me that had been bothering me forever. that had ruined past years. i feel so freakin peaceful.

3 shows this weekend in SC. hopefully, i can get my soon to be landlord on the phone to sign a lease. i waaaaant that apartment. i'm ready to grow up.